Recommitting

Hey there, it's been quite awhile but I think it's time for me to come back. I think documenting this journey will help, so will your support.

Since September I've been working toward recommitting myself to weight loss, Weight Watchers and being active. It's been a slow journey, I've managed to loose 4lbs in 2 and a half months. Not Biggest Looser numbers, but I try to remind myself that it's movement in the right direction.

Why has it been a slow journey this time? I've been of the mindset not to be as strict with myself this time around. Also I'm letting life get in the way too much, when I'm getting off track it's not for an hour or a moment, I'll let it go on for a few days or a week. I need to remind myself that I don't want to give up what I've worked so hard to achieve.

I've just had a week of not counting/eating what I want (or exercising). Though I've enjoyed having treats without the guilt or worry, I'll be seeing those results at the scale tomorrow when I go to my WW meeting. I'm ready to re-recommit myself, to become a little more strict with myself, like I was when I first lost 63 lbs. I have since put back on 30 lbs. I know stopping here, drawing that line in the sand is a victory in itself... But I also promised myself, I'd never go back to the way I was. Here I am half way there.

What am I doing to make this re-recommit happen? I've started tracking using my WW app again, tomorrow morning, I'm going to start tracking everything, honestly. After a week of chaos last week (no time, with so much on my plate), I started exercising again today. I can't let one week beyond my control ruin two and a half months of work. Just a bump in the road.



So here I am, today somewhere in the mid 170's just before my workout.






My old running shoes recently died on me.



I've treated myself to a new pair of running shoes, for years now I've worn the Brooks Dyad, these are the latest model, the Dyad 7. I like that they've moved away from a white runner.

In mid-October I started running again, but doing my own thing outdoors on my favourite trail or in my Village. The colder weather (we've had some snow on the ground) has finally sent me indoors. I've been inspired to start the C25K Program (couch to 5km) to keep me motivated to run on the treadmill to give me a program to focus on, that will keep me going for the next 8 weeks (which should do me into January).






So here' today's program and my Nike+ stats! I am not a fast runner and I don't pretend to be.

It's a start.



- thanks for reading!

Checked Out

I've done it once again, something I've been doing a lot for the last 2-3 years. I've been checking out, I haven't really blogged in 3 weeks.   This time I didn't only check out on my non-existent weight loss efforts but I have seemed to have checked out on life itself.

Over the last 3 weeks I let my house get messier and dirtier until company coming over last weekend forced me to finally clean the house. I not only stopped blogging here, but blogging entirely and it's very unlike me to neglect my other blog, I've been keeping that blog going with fairly regular posts for over 10 years now. My eating habits got worse instead of better, sugar and chocolate became my best friends. The first two weeks I kept up with my running/walking program. 

It was this week that things truly went to hell. This week I stopped caring about everything. I've put on MORE weight, I gobbled back food like its going out of style. 

I didn't want to be at work, or make an effort there either. Out of five days I think I was on time twice.  Monday-Wednesday I found myself coming home from work and going to bed for a few hours, a cycle I find very hard to break.   Then yesterday at lunch we had "salad day" instead of sitting at the table and visiting I found myself aline on the couch with my stitching. I know I was also not the best company while I was out for dinner with my friend Christin.

I ran once. I told myself not to give up on my running program, my progress... I ran once instead of the three times I should have.  Once again I've given up on myself. 

Each night this eek I've told myself, you're going to start over tomorrow. I wake up then next morning, saying today is a fresh start. Each day by 9:30 that start had been thrown out the window. 

So here it is for everyone to see, today I'm starting over again. My goals for this week are:

To complete week 4 of the C25K Program

Keep doing my squats (up to 105 so far)

Be mindful of my food choices

Track my food honestly

Go to Weight Watchers on Wednesdays instead of Saturdays (just not working for me)

I can do this....right?