Over the last 3 weeks I let my house get messier and dirtier until company coming over last weekend forced me to finally clean the house. I not only stopped blogging here, but blogging entirely and it's very unlike me to neglect my other blog, I've been keeping that blog going with fairly regular posts for over 10 years now. My eating habits got worse instead of better, sugar and chocolate became my best friends. The first two weeks I kept up with my running/walking program.
It was this week that things truly went to hell. This week I stopped caring about everything. I've put on MORE weight, I gobbled back food like its going out of style.
I didn't want to be at work, or make an effort there either. Out of five days I think I was on time twice. Monday-Wednesday I found myself coming home from work and going to bed for a few hours, a cycle I find very hard to break. Then yesterday at lunch we had "salad day" instead of sitting at the table and visiting I found myself aline on the couch with my stitching. I know I was also not the best company while I was out for dinner with my friend Christin.
I ran once. I told myself not to give up on my running program, my progress... I ran once instead of the three times I should have. Once again I've given up on myself.
Each night this eek I've told myself, you're going to start over tomorrow. I wake up then next morning, saying today is a fresh start. Each day by 9:30 that start had been thrown out the window.
So here it is for everyone to see, today I'm starting over again. My goals for this week are:
To complete week 4 of the C25K Program
Keep doing my squats (up to 105 so far)
Be mindful of my food choices
Track my food honestly
Go to Weight Watchers on Wednesdays instead of Saturdays (just not working for me)
I can do this....right?