Friday, June 17, 2011
Not Doing So Well
I go to bed each night and wake up every morning with the best of intentions, I have a good breakfast I pack a healthy lunch and snacks for the day... some days I even have to pack dinner too because of either teaching at Taekwon-Do or my Ultimate Frisbee games I don't have time to go home after work. My house is stocked with the best of intentions too. But good intentions don't get good results and kinda sorta doing it kinda sorta doesn't work either.
I don't know what to do with myself I don't know how to make it "click" again. When I was actively loosing my weight I had no problem resisting, saying "no thanks". Now its using the backhoe to shovel whatever's sweet into my mouth.
Something needs to change, the sweets is one of them. I'm thinking something else needs to change but I'm scratching my head at what it is. I am eating empty calories, yes but I'm not just eating empty calories and I'm not running a deficit when it comes to my daily/weekly/activity points. I'm also earning a minimum of 20 activity points a week so its not my old habits of eating anything I want and sitting on my behind. My activities are a combination of Taekwon-Do, walking, running, the gym and ultimate Frisbee. So its not a my workout being static either.
I'm also tired of hearing people say "don't worry you'll get it off". Sitting at over 150 lbs for 11 weeks now, yeah I'm worrying and I'm tired of my pants feeling tight.