Wednesday, May 21, 2014

Ummm Yeah....

A bit of silence there for a bit. I think part of it was I wanted to hide the truth that I suck at this weight loss thing. Also over the long weekend (Victoria Day here in Canada) I just didn't feel like being online.

Last week's weigh in was a fucking disaster, I went in Saturday morning and gained 2.4 lbs. I've gotten myself totally addicted to sugar and well...

These! Vanilla Bean Frappuccinos!!!! I think I had 2-3 of them last week. I am proud to say I've not had another one since Friday. So I've been 5-day Frappuccino-free. Yay me!

I'm trying to make a conscience effort to whittle down my sugar, I know I can't go cold turkey, but I'm going to try to get it down to help deal with these cravings that I keep giving into.

I weighed in again tonight, it's technically a new Weight Watchers week on Sunday. It's another gain, a small one but because I've decided to move from Saturday morning weigh ins back to Wednesday night. With summer here it gets hard to go on the weekend. So another gain. This time 0.4lbs. Really I think that's the difference between a first thing weigh in with not having eaten/drank overnight versus eating and drinking until lunch time.

So with these two gains I'm now at my heaviest weight since I first lost my weight. The last time I was 186 lbs was May of 2008! I need to get myself and my life under control and with each gain I feel things spin a little more out of control.

Which of course follows with lots of negative feelings about myself. Negative feelings leads me to stuffing a lot of shit into my face. Time to get my act together!

- thanks for reading!


Abby said...

No negative feelings. Instead focus on the things you can change.
I too can't totally go cold turkey no sugar, or Starbucks. Once ever week of two I let myself get a Grande Mocha LIGHT frap. The light is only 3 WW points and so good:)

Shebafudge said...

Sorry you're having as crappier time of it as me. I didn't WI last Monday as I was working on my assignment and missed it. Week before it was 1/2 on...grrrrr. Why is it so hard???

New week, new you! Plan a treat to look forward to for next Weds when you have lost.

Amy said...

My last weigh in was a shit show in of itself too...I gained 3 lbs! Ugh! That was my mild tipping point for the week and need to refocus!

You are not alone and we can all do this!